Turning Around…

Where was I headed? Yrs ago I was heading in the same direction I am now. Something happened on the W.V. Mission Trip (GO HERD!!!). It’s quite unexplainable to tell you the truth, But ill do my best to put it in to word so you can grasp what God is doing in my life. I was headed down hill, building speed as I went the whole way. I was fading from God slowly from Junior yr. until now I have faded, This was pointed out by one great friend who I have to thank for really impacting my life, Hayley Gibson you are awesome and bold! I love you girl. She called me out, Asked me “where my standards went?” And reminded me of the passionate God-loving person I was at one time. It pierced me, and I thought about how meaningless these past few yrs of life have been. I mean the yrs have been good for nothing really, other than ruining my witness to hundreds that I went to school with, and friends that I spend all my time with. I decided I can’t do this anymore, battling with the Holy Spirit it is always either a loss in the fact that, you will never overcome God’s unfailing devotion to be near to you, or his conviction for what you’re doing wrong in your life. I weighed my options for far to long, and decided to put my life back in the hands of God. Fighting was getting me nowhere or anything, but realization that ill be miserable if I don’t surrender. So I had to decide, continue down this road of sin until it gets so dark that if I decided to turn around I’d have a hard time depicting dark from light, or surrender. I surrendered my life once again and I have to say, I have never felt better in all my life. I feel so free, happy, loved, united, and joyful. It’s unexplainable!

So weeks prior to this awakening I had, Quinton Mathews and I were talking about his experience at J-Creek, and I was just blown away to see how far he had come in his walk with Christ, and I bought this book called Experiencing GOD, KNOWING and DOING THE WILL OF GOD. I had went through it several yrs ago,after I had first came to Christ in 2004 at J-Creek and, it led me closer to God than I’d ever expected to get on this earth,and in this world we live in. I never finished the bible study but, Quinton and I both have a copy of EXPERIENCING GOD and we are going through it together, meeting once a week to talk about how God is working in our lives. Tonight we met up at B-Dub’s and I’m just excited to see what God has in store for the both of us. I feel like, I’m being called to go into ministry. I want to drop everything and just go to school at Boyce Bible College, or somewhere in the area and see where God is taking me. But how great is it that I bought that book not knowing when I’d need it, only to find out I bought it cause I was going to need it sooner than I intended to. It’s changing my life!!!

Word’s can’t express how meaingful my relationship with Jesus Christ is at this point in my life. I’m in aww. And God is REALLY WORKING in me.

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~ by iamronwahl on October 9, 2009.